After
The morning after, A night from hell. Parched. From the lake of fears that dripped down my face. Stones for muscles. Walls for heart....
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MOUSE
Photography
This very special and personal series titled "Unmasking" came about during the pits of my depression and suicidal thoughts. During this time, finding motivation to do anything lacked heavily, but somehow one of the most powerful healing tools came of it.
**Some of the writings and images may be triggering. Please use caution when continuing to view this page.**
Muscles Ache
This photo is a perfect example of how I feel today, and have been feeling for awhile. Blacked out. The muscles around my heart and chest...
Part Two
It’s no coincidence that I have been tossing the idea around about sharing more openly about my trauma while all the news and media is...
Part One
It’s been hard using words that don’t blatantly explain things since I’ve started this project, but now I have reached a new level. I’m...
Struggle Central
Struggle central. Holy moly. I feel absolutely insane these days. My head hasn’t stopped spinning. I know I need to fight my negative...
Say Yes
I have decided to start saying yes to any outing that sounds like something I want to do. Not going to miss another show, or party, or...
Inner Child
You know how people say they are worried about having kids in days like these? They fear all these wrong doings that will traumatized...
I'm Sorry. Please Forgive Me. Thank You. I love you.
Feelings I feel: Listless Sad Unwanted Unlovable Unworthy Like I am trash Don’t deserve, and wasn’t meant to have relationships Like I...
Who am I?
How can someone go form having a handle on their insecurities for a good solid chunk of years, and then all of the sudden have such a...
The Elephant
I don’t think I realized how sharing this project publicly would make me feel even more uncomfortable around people I know. Everywhere I...
Victim
Recently it was brought to my attention that I may sound a little bit like a victim in the things I write. It forced me to take some time...
Smile, the easy mask.
I keep trying to remember the last time where my smile wasn't a mask to cover how I really feel.
Doomed
I'm pretty sure I'm doomed to never have a solid connection with anyone. Which sucks, because I don't think I have ever been so desperate...
Vulnerability = Pain
You know what the problem with vulnerability is? You have to be vulnerable to people. P-E-O-P-L-E. People hurt you. People use your...
More Unmasking
The motivation for this project was sparked one day just before the new year. Sitting in my therapist office telling him how tired and...
False Advertisement
Read this quote today that read “You will only ever live the life you create for yourself.” I’ll only live the life I create for myself?...
Finding New Edges
I'm getting really good at faking vulnerability with you all here. I feel like the last few posts haven't been so vulnerable. That I'm...
Reflection
Looking back on my life I am realizing a lot. Despite what happened to me, I still was always so vulnerable. I was ALWAYS voicing my...
Why?
I was talking with a friend the other day, and out of confusing and frustration I said, "how can I have so much love for people but also...
Cali State of Mind
On Monday, I had to say goodbye to one of my three dogs. Cali, short for California, was rescued from a backyard where she had been...
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